In recent days, I’ve been experiencing Kundalini fever again. It was triggered by contact with an awakened friend. Since this is happening again, I can confidently confirm what Neven Paar has written and spoken about – the unique experiences of Kundalini lovers.
Kundalini energy is life energy, sexual energy, and creative energy. It’s a tremendous force that can be transformed in any way, provided we master it properly.
I feel that in recent years, this energy has been focused on freeing my consciousness and eliminating the blockages that have built up within me throughout all these lifetimes. Before I learned meditation, proper grounding, and generally before I began consciously working with my energy, I was tossed and torn apart. I was like a volcano that released its energy externally. Fortunately, I was focused on physical activity, work, and study, so I believe I channeled at least some of this energy in ambitious directions.
Currently, this powerful surge of energy is causing me to feel feverish, particularly in the channels of my arms, legs, spine, and heart chakra (I monitor my entire body temperature). My body is reacting differently than before – I used to go running, exercise, and release energy externally. Now I fall into a partial trance. My body is intensely tired and therefore immobilized. I feel it boiling from within, bubbling, vibrating, deafening, causing tears and a dry throat. I feel something being released within me. Even though my body feels burdened, I feel peace, love, joy, calm, and trust. I know that when the fever subsides, something new will emerge. This happens constantly in this process. There is a slowing down, and then new sensations emerge, a certain freshness, a greater lightness, and a sense of love on an even greater scale.
Right now, as I write this, I’m still in this frenzy. I feel dizzy, vibrating, blissful, like an internal orgasm. It’s very pleasant. I’m a bit dazed. The day before, I went out for a moment and lost my sense of reality. I felt like I was in two dimensions simultaneously, and neither was clear to me. I was disoriented. I returned home because I could be a danger to my surroundings, for example, to passing vehicles. I can’t imagine driving anything myself in this state. It’s better for everyone that I’m not currently an active driver.
I’ve heard and read that Kundalini is especially powerful when we have someone else awake around us. Ideally, a lover. Then you can experience the power of sexual energy on a much larger scale. I’m happy to have this opportunity.
The other person’s radiation causes a surge in me that frees me from limitations, inhibitions, but also from completely clear thinking. I feel like I’m in a trance, though not strong enough to completely lose all feeling. I float in the mingling energy of my own and my lover’s. I perceive only his, and I long to exchange my fever for pleasure for both of us.
An energetic orgasm is an interesting phenomenon. It’s difficult to describe in words. It feels like infinite bliss, gratitude, lightness, and density all around you. Warmth, love, trust. It’s the kind of feeling you long for. It touches the soul much more than the body. The mere thought of it brings tears to my eyes, such inner, immeasurable gratitude. I feel like I’ve experienced beauty on a scale that transcends dimensions.
It’s difficult to put into words the sensations and symptoms of Kundalini. You have to experience it to understand that their properties are not equal. And the sensations keep growing, changing scale. Love isn’t equal to the love I felt before. It can be more and more intense.
The fever immobilizes my body, but it opens my mind to something previously unimaginable. I intend for this force to shatter further boundaries within me and allow me to see the truth that was blocked by various programs so typical of human reality.
The touch I knew before was not the touch I feel now. Now I can easily shift sensations to the sensation of electricity in my body, and I can feel, for example, a lover’s body or my own in a completely different way. I am in love with what I am experiencing. I am incredibly grateful for this path, for these opportunities, for my wonderful friend who allows me to see, feel, and experience so much more! I wish everyone to experience this happiness. It is so uplifting and allows me to enjoy life to a degree previously unknown.