Kundalini is sometimes called the primal life energy that lies dormant at the base of the spine. It can be awakened by various methods, or it can awaken spontaneously. It is an energy associated with fire, which is felt in the awakening process.
The awakening of this powerful energy is accompanied by intensive cleansing. The awakening of the Kundalini acts as a catalyst that extracts from us unprocessed emotions, traumas and karmic patterns. The felt fire is also a symbol of the transforming force that burns what blocks our spiritual development.
In order for the blockages to be burned, they must reveal themselves. The process of awakening provokes a confrontation with the traumas hidden in us and forces us to face them. Karmic lessons are activated to be worked through. The effect of overcoming difficulties is enlightenment, and therefore full awareness. This is also called transformation and rebirth.
The awakening of the Kundalini attracts situations that seem almost unbelievable. Life changes irreversibly. A lot of magic appears in it and at the same time the need to hide.
With the increased effect of this energy, which I feel very physically, I have become even more alienated than before. I know that I would have to involve my friends in what is happening to me. I myself still have this skeptical look from a distance and I know that I could be perceived negatively. Lately I have been isolating myself even from people who know about my awakening. My experiences are getting weirder and I don’t want people to think that I have become paranoid.
I have only physically met one person who has awakened to Kundalini. It seems to me that she understands me thanks to this. However, I don’t want to burden her too much. So that she can focus on her experiences. So that she has the freedom to perceive this process through her own eyes.
I try to be as normal a person as possible during this difficult time for me. Difficult and blessed. It is difficult because I often have no control over my body, and sometimes even over my thoughts. Now I have some peace from watery eyes, but it limited me a lot. Sometimes my legs would get tangled. Fortunately, now it is better in this respect too. However, I am struck by this constant internal heat and increasing pressure. I am absent-minded. I make stupid mistakes. Sometimes waves of feelings come. I throw them out randomly, some people get hit like a rifle. I try to slow down, avoid contacts when lava is flowing out of me. It is difficult. I do not want to remember the nonsense that I throw out at this time. I catch myself sometimes contradicting myself in all this, because after a while a different point of view comes to my mind and I get thrown into a loop.
There really is something to cleanse and I understand this fire in me. In the last few days I had the impression that I was burning from the inside. Now, during the weekend, I have an increased temperature and pressure that causes pain in my head and squeaking in my ears.
I would like to cleanse myself as soon as possible and enter a different level of perception. To be reborn, to rise like a phoenix from the ashes and fly high in the sky. I dream of the lightness of life, of having higher knowledge, of freedom of functioning. Of being free from burdens and limitations.
I have the impression that the limitations are inside me. They are burning at this moment. How long will this process last…? How intense will it be…? How much will change…?
January 31st of this year will mark 4 years since I experienced awakening. During these four years, many spiritual situations have appeared. They confirm that development means following a spiritual path. On January 31st, 2021, my soul began to intensively break through to the surface of the animal shell.
The awakening of the Kundalini led to the exposure of my weaknesses. It presented me with situations that I had previously dreamed of with my animalistic tendencies, and which in the new reality disappointed me. I have grown up in a sense. Although perhaps the form – I am growing up would be more accurate. It is ongoing. It is happening now.
Now I see various easy temptations and I do not wade into them, because I know that it is not good for the development of the soul. Now I try to look through the eyes of the soul at myself and others. I think from the perspective of: “would my soul be proud of such behavior”, “is this the plan of my soul”…?
But, as I mentioned earlier, I have these moments when I throw out stupidity, critical attitudes towards various situations, momentary emotions. Here I have work to do. And this is the fire that I feel inside me.