The number and intensity of the symptoms I’ve been experiencing lately are immense. Yet I welcome them with calm, joy, and gratitude.
Today I am going through one of the most physically intense days, and yet inside I feel genuinely happy. My body is very warm – my entire skin surface is at 37.4 degrees Celsius. An elevated temperature is a completely normal state for me – it keeps returning and stays for several to over a dozen days at a time, and this has been happening for more than a year and a half.
For the past few days, I’ve been experiencing very strong pains, as if my bones were being adjusted. Everything happens faster than I can think about it, so my body suddenly jerks, and then there is an echo of pain. Today I feel a kind of bubbling fluid moving upward through my spine and passing through my neck. I have movements in my face, around my ears, in my head. I constantly sense something moving across my back – not only along the spine but across the entire surface.
Yesterday, for several hours, the smell of my body changed. It resembled the scent of cannabis. Of course, I tremble, vibrate, and my body moves on its own. So many things happen beyond my control. And yet, despite the pain, I feel completely calm and joyful within.
I feel a wonderful love – boundless and constantly growing. I’ve started to become moved simply by sensing beauty and pleasure. I appreciate life, the events unfolding around me, and the people in my space. I feel comfort, bliss, and a soothing warmth. Many things have faded from my awareness, and my focus has shifted toward what feels pleasant, light, and beautiful to me. I focus on love, I notice love, and I cultivate love.
A natural repelling force is guiding me away from anything that doesn’t support my vibration. At the same time, the attraction grows toward what is expanding. My courage to express my thoughts and views clearly is growing as well. I end certain connections without any sense of discomfort. By taking care of myself, I also take care of others, because relationships maintained through effort do not support anyone. Allowing paths to separate creates space to move toward what is new and what is most aligned with us in this moment.
So my daily life is a sense of peace and love, while at the same time twisting through pain and other symptoms. I also notice changes in myself that appear day by day and make life more pleasant and more understandable.
I feel mentally and physically healthier. I feel that I am a better version of myself, that I am moving toward truth and love. I feel unity with the Source.