Much is said about the symptoms of Kundalini. It’s worth mentioning the health benefits of spiritual awakening. I will speak from my own experience, as this is the kind of content I’m most interested in myself. And from what you’ve been writing to me – you are too!
Acne and acne scars
At one point in my life, I gained relative popularity online due to the courage it took to show myself in an unflattering state – with acne and post-acne scars. I didn’t just appear on YouTube – I also showed myself on television. I was so determined to find a solution to my situation that I decided to do it publicly.
Since the age of ten, my existence had revolved around acne and the fight against it. Whether I would go to a meeting or how engaged I would be depended on the state of my skin. The acne on my face dictated what hairstyle I would wear – both the cut and the color. Naturally, my clothing was also adapted to the condition of my skin. I didn’t want to get close to anyone because I was ashamed of my body. All my social dreams and plans were postponed. I could write endlessly about acne and its consequences. It was not just a physical disease, but first and foremost – a psychological one. And a serious block to action and the fulfillment of dreams.
With Kundalini, I began to gain self-confidence. It started with self-acceptance. It came as a surprise to me when, after twenty years, pimples and scars stopped being my primary thought. They moved into the background. I still noticed them, but they became something different – no longer hostile. From then on, I began to treat all scars as part of my story, written on my skin and visible – the more intimacy I shared with someone, the more visible they became. Some people choose tattoos as a personal statement. I’m not a fan of tattoos, but I came to see my scars as a beautiful message of my strength and struggle, because that is exactly what they represent.
Acne became my teacher. I realized that acne is a reaction of the body to products and situations that are harmful to me. I break out after consuming highly processed foods, honey, dairy, fatty foods, alcohol, spicy, heavy, low-nutrient, sugar-filled products… Breakouts appear before menstruation and in reaction to negative experiences.
I came to understand that acne is not my enemy – it’s my ally! It informs me. It shows me, almost immediately, what is harmful for me. Thanks to acne, I stick to a healthy, simple diet. Thanks to acne, I take care of my mental and physical well-being. Thanks to acne, I have significantly broadened my knowledge of nutrition, medicine, natural healing, psychology, sociology, and so on. Acne was a driving force that led me to self-reliance and quickly introduced me to healing and spirituality. Because of acne, I wasn’t overly interested in close relationships, which certainly protected me from youthful mistakes. Because of acne, I stopped looking at others solely through the prism of appearance – because I also wanted people to see my depth, not my body. Acne shaped me into the valuable person I am today. It led me to spiritual awakening. I gained deeper vision, awareness, and understanding. The body became a kind of tool, a portal for the soul. I began to see true beauty beyond the physical.
Today, my acne is much milder than it was in the past. I know it will appear after a drink or after eating practically anything, because in today’s world it’s incredibly difficult to find truly healthy ingredients. I know it’s a sign that menstruation is approaching. I know it will appear after visiting a less hygienic, more public place. I know it can be triggered by low-vibrational emotions. In a sense, I can choose the scale of a breakout. The social reactions I experienced were deeply hurtful, and they made the situation worse. It was only awakening that allowed me to see things from the proper perspective. This is not just about acne – in general, EVERY “disease” is the body’s response to a harmful factor or factors. Awakening allows us to understand this and to find a solution.
ADHD
I was always a hyperactive child. Extremely curious. Curiosity would win over fear. I would act first – and think later. I never particularly regretted my hyperactivity. On the contrary – I loved it. However, it’s true that this multitasking nature made it hard to focus on one specific thing. I was interested in everything and did a lot at once. Because of that, I felt like I had up-to-date knowledge on topics that could be important. I worked very quickly and across many areas which, to me, formed a cohesive whole, like puzzle pieces. Friends often called me a knowledge mine and came to me with everything, because I always had something to say and could find a solution. At work, multitasking truly helped me – I had roles that actually required it. ADHD was a significant part of who I was. But at some point, I began to notice that sometimes it was a hindrance.
I couldn’t meditate. I learned about meditation as a teenager and wanted to experience it – like everything that intrigued me. But I couldn’t focus. I tried various exercises – nothing worked. I lacked mindfulness, patience, persistence. I kept fidgeting and changing my train of thought. I was wildly restless. Suddenly, the attitude that had driven my whole life turned out to be a problem. It wasn’t until around the age of 28 that I finally began to succeed in meditating! It started happening when I practiced Huna daily. Step by step, meditation became easier and easier.
ADHD was an obstacle to long-term plans. I was great with short-term tasks – quick to complete – but anything drawn out was almost impossible for me to finish. If I had something quick to do, I acted immediately, and the first thought would lead. But when I had to work long-term, every break – like sleep – would bring new ideas, new scenarios, and I wouldn’t be able to return to the original plan. I often don’t finish a long-term projects that lasts several months or many years – I’m talking about my own projects (at work I finish everythink).
It’s only in recent months that I’ve observed a noticeable shift – I’ve calmed down, both internally and externally. I’m more focused. I’m less distracted. During meditation, I can fully surrender to the process. Physically, I’m less restless – I still gesture a lot, but I don’t fidget, I don’t turn around, I don’t change my point of view every second. I can now read much larger portions of a book at a stretch. At work, I stay with the task I’m doing at that moment. I study in uninterrupted blocks, without distractions. More and more often, I turn off notifications so that urgent things don’t pull me away from what I’m focused on in the here and now. That’s a huge shift for me. I feel relief. From where I stand now, I see that ADHD had many advantages, but also many painful disadvantages. I prefer life without hyperactivity. I’m still adjusting to it. I hope that soon I’ll be able to complete the plans I began at the age of seven – most of which I still haven’t finished.
Physical form
Due to my ADHD, I was extremely physically active. However, I was so unstable that I couldn’t stick with anything for long. Everything became boring after just a few weeks, at most. Workouts, diets… anything.
When I was ten years old, one-shoulder backpacks became a trend. My mother followed the trend and bought me one, and after just a year of using it, my spine was in terrible shape. From then on, rehabilitation, daily workouts, paying attention to proper weight distribution and posture became my norm. And for the fact that I started exercising daily so early, I’m truly grateful. I even set up my own home gym. I also occasionally went running, played soccer, tennis, table tennis, volleyball, badminton, and more. I was wildly active, but I was going about it all wrong. I overstrained my body and felt frustrated by the lack of results. I trained irregularly. I’d go through phases with one sport, then move to another. I was fascinated by Cristiano Ronaldo (like all my colleagues), but I acted chaotically and without proper knowledge. When I began training with a personal trainer in preparation for an important sports exam, I was surprised by his recommendations and didn’t follow them properly. On top of that, a nutritionist gave me a diet based on dairy and fats that only made things worse. Instead of getting stronger, I became weaker, and at the very moment that felt crucial to me, I suffered an injury that stayed with me for years.
It wasn’t until my spiritual awakening that I realized the mistakes I had been making. I began learning proper nutritional and training habits. This time, I actually listened to the advice and guidance of personal trainers. They emphasized the importance of focusing on correct posture as a foundation before doing strength training. Even though the gym is usually associated with building muscle – and I jokingly say I go there to build my six-pack – my true goals are endurance and correcting my posture, bringing balance to my body.
When I work with energy, an enormous amount of energy passes through me – enough to deform a body that isn’t strong enough (I personally know energy workers who are literally twisted physically). Many times, after sessions, I would suffer from pain and exhaustion. My body was overloaded. Now, I’m a much more efficient channel for energy, and my body can handle hours a day in an intense energy stream that practically pins me to the floor and immobilizes me.
Additionally, in recent weeks I’ve noticed that my body is becoming more symmetrical! A spinal misalignment in one direction causes the whole body – including the face – to become asymmetrical. But now my face is surprisingly symmetrical compared to how it looked even just a few months ago! Out of curiosity, I surrounded myself with mirrors to see how my spine looked – and the curvature is visibly reduced! Incredible fortune!
It brings me such joy to see that things I thought were permanent are changing! It turns out that it is possible to transform not only mentally, but physically too – in a beneficial way!
Other
There have been other “miraculous” moments in my life. These days, I actually enjoy going for diagnostic tests. I know doctors won’t find anything, because I feel fantastic. And in fact, since Kundalini awakened, I’ve been encountering better doctors – ones with whom I talk about awakening, who are curious about my case and thus run broader diagnostics. I get scanned and examined in all sorts of ways. Issues that were detected during isotretinoin treatment or while I was on hormonal contraception have now completely disappeared. My test results are excellent. There is still the issue of obstructive scarring that developed after procedures and surgery. If those disappear too, I’ll be able to confidently say that I’ve regained full health!